14 February 2011

kindness

Last year I asked my grandma which holiday is her favorite. She said she likes Valentines best.

Before we got married she asked me if David is a kind man. She asked me that a few times. He is. Her husband was a kind man. And I think maybe that's why she liked Valentine's Day so much.

We went out for breakfast on Valentine's Eve and thought about husbands and wives in our families and how we're thankful for their love. I wish I had a pictures of couples further back into family history, but this will have to do :)

10 February 2011

a confession and a correction

I was wandering through the creation story this morning and saw this verse.
And in the ground, the Lord made to spring up every tree that is pleasant to the sight and good for food. (Genesis 2:9)
Pleasant to the sight? It caught me in the heart and I had to blink back tears. I love to see and make and hold and enjoy beautiful things. Sometimes I feel guilty about this. Or, if not guilty, just like it's an extra, unimportant thing to be easily dropped when more important things come along.

I've long loved this quote--
Have nothing in your houses that you do not know to be useful or believe to be beautiful. (British craftsman and poet William Morris, 1800s)
--but haven't known how to reconcile it with the spiritual side of things, thoughts on simplicity, etc. I tend to believe that prettiness is superfluous. It's a gift to know that God--on purpose--made his garden a delight to the eyes.

09 February 2011

come, spring!



Frost on the roof and cars this morning.
Walking on top of solid puddles.
Light exposing the bare tree and the clear blue sky sing hope.

07 February 2011

faith/sight and grace/earning

David's been really enjoying Hearing God by Dallas Willard. Last night he read me this,
Faith is not opposed to knowledge; it is opposed to sight. And grace is not opposed to effort; it is opposed to earning. Commitment is not sustained by confusion but by insight.
It's so easy to think that faith is a blind leap. But it can't be blindness; Jesus came to heal the blind. He came to give understanding, insight, wisdom. And he also came that we might live trusting him. Wow!

Ahh...that this understanding would seep out in my faith, in my acceptance of grace and in my wholehearted effort.

03 February 2011

pass by me

Our church has been reading and thinking and talking and praying about this section from Mark 6 for the past weeks. It happens just after Jesus and the disciples broke a few loaves of bread and fed 5,000 people.
Immediately he made his disciples get into the boat and go before him to the other side, to Bethsaida, while he dismissed the crowd. And after he had taken leave of them, he went up on the mountain to pray. And when evening came, the boat was out on the sea, and he was alone on the land. And he saw that they were making headway painfully, for the wind was against them. And about the fourth watch of the night he came to them, walking on the sea. He meant to pass by them, but when they saw him walking on the sea they thought it was a ghost, and cried out, for they all saw him and were terrified. But immediately he spoke to them and said, Take heart; it is I. Do not be afraid. And he got into the boat with them, and the wind ceased. And they were utterly astounded, for they did not understand about the loaves, but their hearts were hardened.
In the midst of their exhaustion and the raging storm, Jesus meant to pass by. Really? Look at it. It sounds like he meant to walk right past them and meet them on the opposite side. He saw their distress and he didn't care? Like rubberneckers on the freeway after an accident. I'll just look at the trouble and say, "Bummer!" Jesus often confuses me, but this seems so contrary to his character. To see distress, to see his men making headway painfully and to pass by.

But then we were pointed to Moses and to Elijah. God also passed by them--passed by his chosen, stiff-necked, hard-hearted people. The disciples, Moses, Elijah (and often us, too) were/are in places of chaos, fear, separation, darkness. And God, the God who sees, passed by:
The Lord said to Moses, "I will make my goodness pass before you and will proclaim before you my name 'The Lord.' And I will be gracious, and will show mercy on whom I will show mercy....Behold, there is a place by me where you shall stand on the rock, and while my glory passes by I will put you in a cleft of the rock, and I will cover you with my hand until I have passed by."
And Elijah, when he was in great despair, hiding and wishing to die:
Behold, the Lord passed by, and a great and strong wind tore the mountains and broke in pieces the rocks before the Lord, but the Lord was not in the wind. And after the wind an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake. And after the earthquake a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire. And after the fire the sound of a low whisper. And when Elijah heard it, he wrapped his face in his cloak and went out and stood at the entrance of the cave. And behold, there came a voice to him...
So I think about us. When we are in chaos, fear, separation, darkness.

Oh, God, pass by! Pass by and show us your goodness, let us know your grace, mercy. I want to see your glory. Let us be by you. Cover us. Speak to us with your low whisper.

May we see with our eyes--
        when the man on the water walks toward us,
hear with our ears--
        in the midst of the whipping wind, the earthquake, the fire,
understand with our hearts.

May we turn and be healed.